Today I did something that has been bothering me for a very long time. Back in 1981 My brother and I started a fund to earn money to buy an ATC (3 wheel motorcycle). We got it up to a few hundred dollars and then the money went missing. When it came time to buy the ATC I just put up the money that was missing and thought that would be the end of that. Well things started getting out of hand. My brother got blamed. My little sister got blamed. At this point I just could not find it in me to come clean and say that I took the money. So, I have been caring this lie with me for almost 30 years. It would have been so much better for everyone if I would have just came clean right away. I didn't.
I am not sure why I chose today. Let me re-phrase that. I am not sure why Jesus picked today to have me come clean to my brother and sister about this after 30 years. I also went public with this on Facebook. I really feel wierd inside right now. Can't tell you in words how I feel.
When I went on my men's encounter I came clean with Jesus of all the things that I have done to offend him. I felt at that time that was all I needed to do. but still, this kept tugging at me. It was as if Jesus was telling me that I didn't need to come clean to him, I needed to come clean to my brother and sister who I have really hurt over the years with this.
I am not sure what I am trying to say to you. I know this, you need to get rid of all your baggage otherwise it will stay with you forever. Bottom line, I hope that they see the change in me and that this change came from Jesus being in my life. I hope that this will help them see that Jesus is the way. The only way. I have been a Christian for 9 1/2 years now and I am not sure why I have not done this sooner. I figure that my faith in Jesus is growing. I have faith and trust in the Lord to make this work for His Glory and Honor. I give all the Praise and Glory to Him. I now fully feel the Spirit of the Lord. And you know that "Where the Spirit of the Lord is, There IS FREEDOM"!
I GOT THE SPIRIT!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
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